yo. ellaine!mae is here. yup, it's her blog.
she likes GREEN, screwdrivers and her friends. (L)
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lonely//cheerful facade.
i'm deeming this blog safe. clearly, nobody ever passes by here now. oh well. so, yeah. i have a lot of things to talk about actually. one of them being.. dun-dun-dun.. COMMON TESTS !
so, yeah. i know it isn't much, compared to EOY but, have you seen those papers ? it's scary to think that EOY papers will be set much harder than that. i've already, clearly, failed my A math. plus, i'm positive that i'll fail my history too. i wrote a bunch of crap in there. so far, i've only been motivated for my best subjects, english and science. though i haven't taken my physics and biology yet, i can see myself mugging for it. i actually took my study time for history to mug for my chemistry. go figure, why i expect myself to fail. BADLY. sad thing is, as much as i want to be motivated for my E math, clearly, i can't seem to. if not, i won't be blogging now. meh.
second thing, i feel very lonely. no matter how much i might seem to be popular, no matter how many friends i make, no matter how cheerful i may seem to be, i can't bring myself to be genuinely happy. i don't really understand it, myself. my best friend ? yeah. he doesn't really act like it. i actually get tired of listening to you complain about MY friends. you know, i usually just pour everything out to someone but i actually feel like keeping things to myself now. nobody would care to listen, nobody would understand. realizing this only made my motivation lower down. i don't care if everybody suddenly asks, "why are you so emo?". i know that everyone just sees my cheerful facade but i'm really very!lonely inside. while i type this, i'm talking to my best friend who is asking why i'm so quiet, but i also feel like crying. denying that nothing's wrong is so hard. i've grown up, basically. i've learned to keep things to myself, avoiding drama and all the unecessary stuff. basically, talking about will just make me cry more. sigh. i hate feeling so lonely. i wanna be happy. i wanna smile at home, where my mask is off.
i feel so lonely.
why ?
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lonely//cheerful facade.
i'm deeming this blog safe. clearly, nobody ever passes by here now. oh well. so, yeah. i have a lot of things to talk about actually. one of them being.. dun-dun-dun.. COMMON TESTS !
so, yeah. i know it isn't much, compared to EOY but, have you seen those papers ? it's scary to think that EOY papers will be set much harder than that. i've already, clearly, failed my A math. plus, i'm positive that i'll fail my history too. i wrote a bunch of crap in there. so far, i've only been motivated for my best subjects, english and science. though i haven't taken my physics and biology yet, i can see myself mugging for it. i actually took my study time for history to mug for my chemistry. go figure, why i expect myself to fail. BADLY. sad thing is, as much as i want to be motivated for my E math, clearly, i can't seem to. if not, i won't be blogging now. meh.
second thing, i feel very lonely. no matter how much i might seem to be popular, no matter how many friends i make, no matter how cheerful i may seem to be, i can't bring myself to be genuinely happy. i don't really understand it, myself. my best friend ? yeah. he doesn't really act like it. i actually get tired of listening to you complain about MY friends. you know, i usually just pour everything out to someone but i actually feel like keeping things to myself now. nobody would care to listen, nobody would understand. realizing this only made my motivation lower down. i don't care if everybody suddenly asks, "why are you so emo?". i know that everyone just sees my cheerful facade but i'm really very!lonely inside. while i type this, i'm talking to my best friend who is asking why i'm so quiet, but i also feel like crying. denying that nothing's wrong is so hard. i've grown up, basically. i've learned to keep things to myself, avoiding drama and all the unecessary stuff. basically, talking about will just make me cry more. sigh. i hate feeling so lonely. i wanna be happy. i wanna smile at home, where my mask is off.
i feel so lonely.
why ?
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Theme Song. ♥
True Colours ♥
You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness there inside you
Makes you feel so small
But I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
Show me a smile then,
And don't be unhappy, can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there
And I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
Ohhhh
I can't remember
When I last saw you laugh
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there
And I see your true colours
Shining through
See your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours, true colours
Are beautiful like a rainbow
I see your True colours shining through
See your true colours
That’s why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
Your true colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
Ohhhhhhh
Adopted Trees.
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