yo. ellaine!mae is here. yup, it's her blog.
she likes GREEN, screwdrivers and her friends. (L)
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uselessness and insecurities.
I think I finally figured out why i'm so exhausted, everyday.
I moodswing too much.
Hm. I can talk a lot about what happened these past few days but I'm not gonna. I just feel like whining a lot now. Why, you ask? Facebook has recently stopped working with my iTouch. I was seriously ready to bang it against a wall. The only other option was to install the new one but I had to update my software and all. That meant syncing my iTouch into my laptop. That meant that all my songs and photos would go POOF. Obviously, it did. From 735 songs, I'm down to 50 songs. Even though that's only the organised ones, it's still little, compared to 735. To top it off, my Dad still hasn't taught me how to plug in my external hard drive. You know, to put in all my albums. Sigh. I feel like crying. Seriously. It's just so unfair. I want to update my software, I have to pay. WHY?! They didn't charge, last time. Why now? Oh, ugh. I feel very BLEH right now. My iTouch is completely and utterly useless.
Actually, I feel a little useless, myself. Do you think I'm a bad friend? Or a flirt, even? I don't even know why I'm thinking of such stuff. Maybe it's because I'm becoming closer to the guys. Sharing secrets and problems and all those. Or maybe it's because of those secrets itself. I feel like I don't deserve to know them. I'm afraid that they trust me too much. I don't even have proof that I'm completely trustworthy. Don't get me wrong though. I'm still trustworthy. It's just that there happened to be a recent incident(s) where I may have slipped on some things. Not the whole thing but just enough. I mean, I don't even know how my friends think of me. Do they get irritated that I'm violent, short-tempered, bad-tempered and moody? Do they think that they'd rather that I don't hang around them? Yes, I do feel very confused. I love my friends and all but, I won't really and exactly know what they think about me. I don't even want to know what, those that don't know me, think of me. Flirt? Just because I hang out with 2B'09 guys. Ocassionally, with Bryan but that's all. Loud? Yes, I am loud. Bad example of an SC? Um. I try not to, okay?
Really. What do you think of me?
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shocks and gossip.
everybody's sick of school, nowadays.
who wouldn't be ?
every single stress and pressure you could ever think of, is being forced onto us.
why ?
because our batch is unlucky, like that. (N)
so far, everything's been normal.
except for th stress part.
but i'm not gonna whine abt tht anymore. (Y)
th only shocking thing would be th recent 'findings'.
yeah.
i knowww i should stop digging for gossip/secrets but i just can't help it. (Y)
plus, it makes great conversation to someone you never thought you could have been gossiping with.
yes, i mean Glen.
LOL.
but it's probably partly because i sit beside him, respectively.
you have nooo idea how fun it is to annoy him.
too bad i always get pwned by him too. (N)
countless of times.
tht sucker. (N)
at least Faith is behind me. (Y)
which can both be a good thing or a bad thing, actually.
i still (L) you, Faith. :D
yeah, well, th thing was it was double period Math tht day.
and, surprisingly, i was actually understanding wht Mr.Kok was teaching.
yes, yes, i know. a MIRACLE. (Y)
too bad i didn't get to hear some parts at th end because i was talking--gossiping--with Glen.
i don't even remember howit started.
just tht, quite a few shockers, actually.
somethings tht are too controversial to put up here.
one thing's for sure, though.
i'm never gonna look at them, th same way ever again.
talking would be easy, yup.
hm. i don't know. maybe i should observing muchmuch more.
of course, i'm a natural observer. (Y)
and a kicking psychologist, at tht. (Y)
hey. i'm proud of it, okay ?
plus, i really DO observe a lot of things.
which makes my theories, more or less real.
like th one with B and T.
most people would be shocked but i wasn't.
even in th past.
especially when D and M got together.
i was only surprised because i didn't want it to happen.
aw man. gotta stop dwelling in th past now.
so, anyway, i really DO observe quite a few things others might not.
and i know thigns tht others aren't supposed to know.
i'm just really susceptible to secrets, i guess.
like, how S actually doesn't like how D is acting but doesn't show it.
i understand though, at a certain extent.
i don't exactly know how they feel 'cause i'm not them.
so i can only understand at from wht i know, hear and see.
(L) 2B forver. :D
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about time. =_=
heyyyyyyyyyyyyyo !
about time i update, right ?
ho-hum.
this is like, so dead.
and i still probably can't update regularly because of school and stuff.
anyway, just wanted to update now. :D
don't know when i can renovate this thing, though.
thisis all i have for now.
peace out. (L)
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uselessness and insecurities.
I think I finally figured out why i'm so exhausted, everyday.
I moodswing too much.
Hm. I can talk a lot about what happened these past few days but I'm not gonna. I just feel like whining a lot now. Why, you ask? Facebook has recently stopped working with my iTouch. I was seriously ready to bang it against a wall. The only other option was to install the new one but I had to update my software and all. That meant syncing my iTouch into my laptop. That meant that all my songs and photos would go POOF. Obviously, it did. From 735 songs, I'm down to 50 songs. Even though that's only the organised ones, it's still little, compared to 735. To top it off, my Dad still hasn't taught me how to plug in my external hard drive. You know, to put in all my albums. Sigh. I feel like crying. Seriously. It's just so unfair. I want to update my software, I have to pay. WHY?! They didn't charge, last time. Why now? Oh, ugh. I feel very BLEH right now. My iTouch is completely and utterly useless.
Actually, I feel a little useless, myself. Do you think I'm a bad friend? Or a flirt, even? I don't even know why I'm thinking of such stuff. Maybe it's because I'm becoming closer to the guys. Sharing secrets and problems and all those. Or maybe it's because of those secrets itself. I feel like I don't deserve to know them. I'm afraid that they trust me too much. I don't even have proof that I'm completely trustworthy. Don't get me wrong though. I'm still trustworthy. It's just that there happened to be a recent incident(s) where I may have slipped on some things. Not the whole thing but just enough. I mean, I don't even know how my friends think of me. Do they get irritated that I'm violent, short-tempered, bad-tempered and moody? Do they think that they'd rather that I don't hang around them? Yes, I do feel very confused. I love my friends and all but, I won't really and exactly know what they think about me. I don't even want to know what, those that don't know me, think of me. Flirt? Just because I hang out with 2B'09 guys. Ocassionally, with Bryan but that's all. Loud? Yes, I am loud. Bad example of an SC? Um. I try not to, okay?
Really. What do you think of me?
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shocks and gossip.
everybody's sick of school, nowadays.
who wouldn't be ?
every single stress and pressure you could ever think of, is being forced onto us.
why ?
because our batch is unlucky, like that. (N)
so far, everything's been normal.
except for th stress part.
but i'm not gonna whine abt tht anymore. (Y)
th only shocking thing would be th recent 'findings'.
yeah.
i knowww i should stop digging for gossip/secrets but i just can't help it. (Y)
plus, it makes great conversation to someone you never thought you could have been gossiping with.
yes, i mean Glen.
LOL.
but it's probably partly because i sit beside him, respectively.
you have nooo idea how fun it is to annoy him.
too bad i always get pwned by him too. (N)
countless of times.
tht sucker. (N)
at least Faith is behind me. (Y)
which can both be a good thing or a bad thing, actually.
i still (L) you, Faith. :D
yeah, well, th thing was it was double period Math tht day.
and, surprisingly, i was actually understanding wht Mr.Kok was teaching.
yes, yes, i know. a MIRACLE. (Y)
too bad i didn't get to hear some parts at th end because i was talking--gossiping--with Glen.
i don't even remember howit started.
just tht, quite a few shockers, actually.
somethings tht are too controversial to put up here.
one thing's for sure, though.
i'm never gonna look at them, th same way ever again.
talking would be easy, yup.
hm. i don't know. maybe i should observing muchmuch more.
of course, i'm a natural observer. (Y)
and a kicking psychologist, at tht. (Y)
hey. i'm proud of it, okay ?
plus, i really DO observe a lot of things.
which makes my theories, more or less real.
like th one with B and T.
most people would be shocked but i wasn't.
even in th past.
especially when D and M got together.
i was only surprised because i didn't want it to happen.
aw man. gotta stop dwelling in th past now.
so, anyway, i really DO observe quite a few things others might not.
and i know thigns tht others aren't supposed to know.
i'm just really susceptible to secrets, i guess.
like, how S actually doesn't like how D is acting but doesn't show it.
i understand though, at a certain extent.
i don't exactly know how they feel 'cause i'm not them.
so i can only understand at from wht i know, hear and see.
(L) 2B forver. :D
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about time. =_=
heyyyyyyyyyyyyyo !
about time i update, right ?
ho-hum.
this is like, so dead.
and i still probably can't update regularly because of school and stuff.
anyway, just wanted to update now. :D
don't know when i can renovate this thing, though.
thisis all i have for now.
peace out. (L)
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True Colours ♥
You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness there inside you
Makes you feel so small
But I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
Show me a smile then,
And don't be unhappy, can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there
And I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
Ohhhh
I can't remember
When I last saw you laugh
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there
And I see your true colours
Shining through
See your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours, true colours
Are beautiful like a rainbow
I see your True colours shining through
See your true colours
That’s why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
Your true colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
Ohhhhhhh
Adopted Trees.
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